Of late, things haven't been going too smoothly for me; in particular, school. I have to confess, being an engineering undergrad is pretty demanding. I wake up to skirmishes everyday, little battles with myself, my friends as we attempt in vain, to solve mathematical problems larger than we are. I try hard to gather and swallow whether the professors spit out viciously at us; though I doubt I'm able to assimilate what I've gained, learned, gathered. I feel so tired and yet, I encounter problems everynight when I try to sleep. Lessons don't end when the projector is shut off and tutorials never stop even when discussions cease. School haunts me; everywhere I go.
Perhaps, I'm ignorant to procrastinate. There are many other problems and burdens that others carry, larger than themselves, larger than I am. I am naive, a defeatist. I have to find my feet, my direction, my solace.
Perhaps, I'm ignorant to procrastinate. There are many other problems and burdens that others carry, larger than themselves, larger than I am. I am naive, a defeatist. I have to find my feet, my direction, my solace.
All this while, while you guys had been away, things certainly did change; nevertheless, a meeting, a conversation just brings back those wonderful times, the formative years, those crazy times. On hindsight, we were foolish and funny kids.
Calvin
You were one of my first friends in secondary school and after eight years of brotherhood, we finally had a chance to meet after three years. It wasn't easy saying hello and goodbye in a matter of 24 hours, but I guess that's what we can all afford at this point in time. So many things have changed. In and done with army, now in college; while you got your first class down under and will be getting married next year. Just makes me wonder at times if we've been separated by 8 hours of air travel for that long. Doesn't feel and seem so. All I'd like to say right now is good luck and all the best! I will see you in Bali on 17th Jul next year. We will be there - definitely.
Mitch
Speaking to you for the first time in ages does put things in perspective. Gone were those crazy days of ours'. It seems as though we were the only foolish kids that actually studied during the first three months of JC. We skipped school for mutton soup, hung out on Saturdays and you even helped me choose my now decreased pet crabs. It really was an epiphany having heard, or rather read your thoughts and experiences. It would be naive for me to think that I could offer some help, but thanks, thanks for telling me what you are going through. Hang in there brother; because it's through the difficulties and mess of life that we grow and emerge as better, stronger, wiser people. We will meet when you're back in December. I'm all for it, totally hyped up. In the meantime, hang in there. Your struggles will not be in vain.
Having said the above, I guess I've reached a point in my life where friends come and go. The people I frequently meet can vastly change in weeks, months. Perhaps, I just have to cherish them more...
Calvin
You were one of my first friends in secondary school and after eight years of brotherhood, we finally had a chance to meet after three years. It wasn't easy saying hello and goodbye in a matter of 24 hours, but I guess that's what we can all afford at this point in time. So many things have changed. In and done with army, now in college; while you got your first class down under and will be getting married next year. Just makes me wonder at times if we've been separated by 8 hours of air travel for that long. Doesn't feel and seem so. All I'd like to say right now is good luck and all the best! I will see you in Bali on 17th Jul next year. We will be there - definitely.
Mitch
Speaking to you for the first time in ages does put things in perspective. Gone were those crazy days of ours'. It seems as though we were the only foolish kids that actually studied during the first three months of JC. We skipped school for mutton soup, hung out on Saturdays and you even helped me choose my now decreased pet crabs. It really was an epiphany having heard, or rather read your thoughts and experiences. It would be naive for me to think that I could offer some help, but thanks, thanks for telling me what you are going through. Hang in there brother; because it's through the difficulties and mess of life that we grow and emerge as better, stronger, wiser people. We will meet when you're back in December. I'm all for it, totally hyped up. In the meantime, hang in there. Your struggles will not be in vain.
Having said the above, I guess I've reached a point in my life where friends come and go. The people I frequently meet can vastly change in weeks, months. Perhaps, I just have to cherish them more...
I haven't been reading much recently, this speaks much about my time management skills. Somehow, I must find a way to get reading back into my life.
Life's been really fine for the past month, with not many hiccups. I hope the final quarter of 2008 will bring better memories, better moments and better treasure. Well life seems like a one-way street thus far. Will it ever twist and turn again? Like those days when I pined hopelessly for you? Is life really meant to be a rat race - never-ending, ceaseless and incessant? Well, I cannot figure it out myself.
I need to beat inertia, time and reluctance to engineer a change in life; a positive change. I need to shed my insecurities and learn how how to live, how to live properly. To learn to lead, to learn how to raise my hand and take the initiative. Time really flies, definitely faster than an A380. I have to catch it soon.
If we held our hands real tightly, will it remain like this forever? I've read that a particle will stay at rest or a state of constant velocity unless acted upon by by anexternal unbalanced force.
Are we particles? I thought we were animals...
Life's been really fine for the past month, with not many hiccups. I hope the final quarter of 2008 will bring better memories, better moments and better treasure. Well life seems like a one-way street thus far. Will it ever twist and turn again? Like those days when I pined hopelessly for you? Is life really meant to be a rat race - never-ending, ceaseless and incessant? Well, I cannot figure it out myself.
I need to beat inertia, time and reluctance to engineer a change in life; a positive change. I need to shed my insecurities and learn how how to live, how to live properly. To learn to lead, to learn how to raise my hand and take the initiative. Time really flies, definitely faster than an A380. I have to catch it soon.
If we held our hands real tightly, will it remain like this forever? I've read that a particle will stay at rest or a state of constant velocity unless acted upon by by an
Are we particles? I thought we were animals...
So much had happened recently; it was literally an explosion of events.
Perhaps similar to a situation when a radioactive substance is hit by a wave of free neutrons. And yet, in my mind's eye, only someone remains static amidst the flurry of bustling activity. Looking back, I'm really glad of everything that had happened. I guess this is what life is about; about looking back and reminiscing your finest moments, usually with the people/someone that matter(s).
It flies so very quickly as it has flown for-ever. You can never catch time; it catches you. And when it does, you age.
How can I beat time in a race?
I just want to cherish everything around and not take anything for granted. Life has been kind to me so far.
I don't want to advance in my metamorphosis.
I don't want to change.
And yet, I've changed.
Cheers to the happiest 5 months of my life.
Perhaps similar to a situation when a radioactive substance is hit by a wave of free neutrons. And yet, in my mind's eye, only someone remains static amidst the flurry of bustling activity. Looking back, I'm really glad of everything that had happened. I guess this is what life is about; about looking back and reminiscing your finest moments, usually with the people/someone that matter(s).
It flies so very quickly as it has flown for-ever. You can never catch time; it catches you. And when it does, you age.
How can I beat time in a race?
I just want to cherish everything around and not take anything for granted. Life has been kind to me so far.
I don't want to advance in my metamorphosis.
I don't want to change.
And yet, I've changed.
Cheers to the happiest 5 months of my life.
I woke up this morning to be greeted by darkness around me, to be received by the chill of an early February morning. Hours later, I will be going church, I will be a pious boy this Sunday; just like other Sundays. I doubt bones and dope will make the pilgrimage. Let's pray for their mercy, for the Father Almighty to show compassion upon these lost sheep of his. Amen
I have been plagued by this sense of longing since you've been gone. Like a stubborn stain, it doesn't go away,it remains obstinately etched onto your perfect sheet of canvas. The days and nights have been long and lonely, like a never ending dusty path that leads to nowhere. Perhaps that's what loneliness brings. You feel sorry for yourself. You yearn for your favourite companion, friend, soulmate, lover; and yet you're helpless and alone. Efforts to seek solace in anything else are futile because she is irreplaceable, like the sun that shines above your head. You want the sun to rise, to rescue you from the damp choking chill of the abysmal night, to warm your heart and soul once again, to bring colour to your life and to revive your dulled senses.
A necessary trip down to Gleneagles today brought back many fond memories.
It was a short passage that managed to evoke the smells, colors, sounds, and shapes of the past.
Ironically, the subtle and lifeless colours of the building had made me feel comfortable.
Perhaps it was the familiarity and affinity with the past that brought me comfort, relief;
It's old-charm still holding so much sway over me.
The slight astringent smell within it's oblong body teased and tickled my senses/soul.
It seemed just like the yesteryears, those that had left us reminiscing our happy moments in it's devastating trail;
just like a blitzkrieg.
The marbled-hallways echoed the clatter of heels from the struts, swanks and swaggers of it's occupants, tenants and staff.
So familiar, so close to the heart.
Everything was exactly the same.
Only if; if only you were still here granddad.
1930 - 2006.
It was a short passage that managed to evoke the smells, colors, sounds, and shapes of the past.
Ironically, the subtle and lifeless colours of the building had made me feel comfortable.
Perhaps it was the familiarity and affinity with the past that brought me comfort, relief;
It's old-charm still holding so much sway over me.
The slight astringent smell within it's oblong body teased and tickled my senses/soul.
It seemed just like the yesteryears, those that had left us reminiscing our happy moments in it's devastating trail;
just like a blitzkrieg.
The marbled-hallways echoed the clatter of heels from the struts, swanks and swaggers of it's occupants, tenants and staff.
So familiar, so close to the heart.
Everything was exactly the same.
Only if; if only you were still here granddad.
1930 - 2006.
I feel like a bacon strip in the middle of a Subway Melt, I'm sandwiched.
It is uncomfortable being clamped between 2 blocks of carbohydrates.
On a lighter note, I've just made a new friend!
Her name is poverty.
My days as a peasant will end soon.
It is uncomfortable being clamped between 2 blocks of carbohydrates.
On a lighter note, I've just made a new friend!
Her name is poverty.
My days as a peasant will end soon.
So tired, so tired of living.
Time for a spiritual journey, I shall go to church tomorrow.
To pray, to seek solace and direction.
I hope the Lord strengthens the bonds that hold my universe together.
He knows that even the strongest of bonds are only as strong as their weakest link.
I will pray for peace,
for passion/love,
for my brethren
and
for wisdom.
Amen.
To pray, to seek solace and direction.
I hope the Lord strengthens the bonds that hold my universe together.
He knows that even the strongest of bonds are only as strong as their weakest link.
I will pray for peace,
for passion/love,
for my brethren
and
for wisdom.
Amen.
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